知己知彼,百战不殆
-孙子
有人把它解成: 選專業, 找工作, 找對象, 等等, 大凡做出人生的抉擇時, 沒有最好的, 只有最適合的.
但我想, 我們往往在選擇時都會舍去最適合的, 尋找最好的, 因為我們都自認自己擁有籌碼.
就像賭博一樣, 再多的籌碼一定會用完, 那時我們才發現最適合的早已遠離我們, 只剩下一些烂蘋果.
聰明的人留住目前最適合的, 但不停的尋找最好的.
懶惰的人聽天由命. 有也好, 沒有就算了. 只能說沒緣分.
對的起良心的人最傻. 拋棄最適合的, 尋找自己沒保險的夢.
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Personality test
A very accurate personality test, at least for me, I find it's 90% accurate for me ;P
Try it yourself @ http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
Try it yourself @ http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
Your view on yourself: (not sure about this one hehe)
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: (very accurate!!! I don't really set an eye at handsome guys but only those who can stimulate me, attract me at conversations or anything ;P)
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.Your readiness to commit to a relationship: (very accurate, no 1 night stand ;P)
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.The seriousness of your love: (haha dunno leh, flirty? maybe ;P)
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?Your views on education (quite accurate)
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.The right job for you: (quite accurate)
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.How do you view success: (very accurate!!! I'm really very lack of courage.)
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.What are you most afraid of: (again, very accurate, dang!)
Who is your true self: (humm.. maybe hehe)
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.Thursday, November 27, 2008
I hate lalat
Summer got a lot of lalat. One of the lalat is very annoying. I can easily identify that lalat because he keeps coming to my apartment. That lalat is also very scary, whenever I put my food for 1 mins, I can immediately see him flying around my house as if he's been patrolling outside my windows 24/7. Scary leh!
Actually I don't mind lalat coming to my house. My own fault also what, who ask me open windows big big as if welcoming the lalat. I open my windows big big, he thought I asking him come in. I just want some fresh air for my own pleasure mah. Aish bo pian. He wants to come in, I cannot block him also. But the thing that I hate most about this lalat is, whenever he comes to my house, he always leaves his footprints at my food, at my house. Walao eh, cannot tahan loh. People already hao xin let him come in my house admiring my pretty house, smelling my nice food, he still doesn't know how to behave, still left his ugly and smelly footprints all over my house. Haiz. If only he knows how to go to market, buys perfume and left good-smelling footprints at my house. He happy I also happy.
I told mama and my friends about lalat. They all asked me use lalat sprayer spray him lah. Walao. Cannot like that mah. I already see the lalat for so many days. Got gan qing already mah. Even dislike him also cannot say spray then spray. Aiks. Really hao xin no hao bao.
Haiz. 1st December starts summer and ends at 28th Feb next year. May summer passes by asap so the lalat goes hibernating and stops disturbing me.
夏天很多蒼蠅.
Actually I don't mind lalat coming to my house. My own fault also what, who ask me open windows big big as if welcoming the lalat. I open my windows big big, he thought I asking him come in. I just want some fresh air for my own pleasure mah. Aish bo pian. He wants to come in, I cannot block him also. But the thing that I hate most about this lalat is, whenever he comes to my house, he always leaves his footprints at my food, at my house. Walao eh, cannot tahan loh. People already hao xin let him come in my house admiring my pretty house, smelling my nice food, he still doesn't know how to behave, still left his ugly and smelly footprints all over my house. Haiz. If only he knows how to go to market, buys perfume and left good-smelling footprints at my house. He happy I also happy.
I told mama and my friends about lalat. They all asked me use lalat sprayer spray him lah. Walao. Cannot like that mah. I already see the lalat for so many days. Got gan qing already mah. Even dislike him also cannot say spray then spray. Aiks. Really hao xin no hao bao.
Haiz. 1st December starts summer and ends at 28th Feb next year. May summer passes by asap so the lalat goes hibernating and stops disturbing me.
夏天很多蒼蠅.
2nd best
Sometime ago, one of my friends asked me do you settle for 2nd best? I was not very pleased with his question, in fact, I was a little bit annoyed. I hate that kind of man. The man who wears thick rimmed glasses, who walks around with his long checklist, who audits woman based on quality, who buys insurance for his relationship, who does every little thing to make sure his secure future. I just feel so... ewww... towards that kind of man. So the conversation continued with me being very sarcastic in every of my replies. I told him I guess I'm not like you, I don't see people based on qualities so there's no 1st or 2nd or 3rd best for me. And I don't take people as spare tyre so there's no 2nd best but only the person I like or the people I don't like.
Hate man who looks for the other half based on qualities and treats those who like him but don't qualify for the requirements as unfavored love candidates. I sarcastically told him that I can design a program that qualifies all his requirements: woman who believes in love, must be at least average in looks, able to communicate through music and able to stimulates him intellectually. Believes in love means must be a romantic and gentle girl. Must be at least average in looks means must be pretty and good looking to him. Able to communicate through music means must be artistic. Able to stimulate him intellectually means must be smart. It's so much easier and faster for him to date a program instead of his perfect woman.
I always think man is very realistic. Those who have money, expensive condo, nice car, great achievements, good career, networks, tons of hobbies are those who hunt woman based on quality because they think they have leverage. And most of the time, they see women as some kind of predators who is hunger for their perfect man. Well, maybe in fact, some women really behave like that. And those who penniless, have no apartment, cheap car, poorly paid job are those who don't even have the confidence to glare at the woman they love.
Quality... is it really important, I wonder? Are we looking for the perfect man by our side or the man who is willing to spend the rest of his life living with us but not others? My other friend gave his comment on me. He said I only notice talented guys. I denied. I think I'm not like that. I was not attracted by the so-called talented guys that were acknowledged by the class before. Instead, I preferred to crap to the guys that probably were not very high profile in the class.
I find it's tiring to deal with the quality guy. Even for a simple conversation, I need to crack my head to adjust to his level, stimulate him and hide my weaknesses. Even if I get the quality, do I get the love I want? The guy who cannot smartly let me comfortably be myself must be the guy that I don't want. The quality guy who only can see the good in himself but fail to appreciates woman must be the guy that I don't want. I guess I'm just not the very smart girl who knows how to set her eyes on those quality rich guys and use her 101 tricks to fool them. I rather choose love than quality. Of course, I won't like those who cannot attract me, bores me and traumatizes me.
Very different with my little bro. He is very good at cheating girls. He sets his targets clearly. His phone book only consists of those good looking girl numbers or at least high profile girl numbers. And those girls unbelievably willingly to devote themselves to him. Mum shared dad's sms today. Dad told her that her future daughter in law cooked porridge for him tonight. My bro is really good at controlling and manipulating girl. The girl not yet married to him already did those daughter in law jobs while girls nowadays mostly only want to be pampered and pacified. Don't understand why the girl listens to him so much. My little bro is smart but his big sister is a dumb one.
Hate man who looks for the other half based on qualities and treats those who like him but don't qualify for the requirements as unfavored love candidates. I sarcastically told him that I can design a program that qualifies all his requirements: woman who believes in love, must be at least average in looks, able to communicate through music and able to stimulates him intellectually. Believes in love means must be a romantic and gentle girl. Must be at least average in looks means must be pretty and good looking to him. Able to communicate through music means must be artistic. Able to stimulate him intellectually means must be smart. It's so much easier and faster for him to date a program instead of his perfect woman.
I always think man is very realistic. Those who have money, expensive condo, nice car, great achievements, good career, networks, tons of hobbies are those who hunt woman based on quality because they think they have leverage. And most of the time, they see women as some kind of predators who is hunger for their perfect man. Well, maybe in fact, some women really behave like that. And those who penniless, have no apartment, cheap car, poorly paid job are those who don't even have the confidence to glare at the woman they love.
Quality... is it really important, I wonder? Are we looking for the perfect man by our side or the man who is willing to spend the rest of his life living with us but not others? My other friend gave his comment on me. He said I only notice talented guys. I denied. I think I'm not like that. I was not attracted by the so-called talented guys that were acknowledged by the class before. Instead, I preferred to crap to the guys that probably were not very high profile in the class.
I find it's tiring to deal with the quality guy. Even for a simple conversation, I need to crack my head to adjust to his level, stimulate him and hide my weaknesses. Even if I get the quality, do I get the love I want? The guy who cannot smartly let me comfortably be myself must be the guy that I don't want. The quality guy who only can see the good in himself but fail to appreciates woman must be the guy that I don't want. I guess I'm just not the very smart girl who knows how to set her eyes on those quality rich guys and use her 101 tricks to fool them. I rather choose love than quality. Of course, I won't like those who cannot attract me, bores me and traumatizes me.
Very different with my little bro. He is very good at cheating girls. He sets his targets clearly. His phone book only consists of those good looking girl numbers or at least high profile girl numbers. And those girls unbelievably willingly to devote themselves to him. Mum shared dad's sms today. Dad told her that her future daughter in law cooked porridge for him tonight. My bro is really good at controlling and manipulating girl. The girl not yet married to him already did those daughter in law jobs while girls nowadays mostly only want to be pampered and pacified. Don't understand why the girl listens to him so much. My little bro is smart but his big sister is a dumb one.
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Answer
Previously I posted about the code. Few people asked me about it. Okay, maybe it is not that easy.
sir ejo is an aboriginal cil
a word acdgk means BeforeCentury wars
you c aboriginal cil likes hl milk ad
hints: maths and right-left-right
right-left-right:
- People can differentiate left and right if there's at least a pair of items. For example: ab - a is at left and b is at right.
- Each of the sentence are in multiple of 2.
- There are 3 sentences and 3 items (right-left-right).
- Based on those, can try: pair up each word in the sentence and cross out the useless words.
ejo an cil
a acdgk BeforeCentury
c cil hl ad
maths:
- The easiest way to convert words to numbers is by the position of the characters. a is 1 while z is 24.
It becomes:
5 10 15 ; 1 14 ; 3 9 12
1 ; 1 3 4 7 11 ; Left out the BeforeCentury for first
3 ; 3 9 12 ; 8 12 ; 1 4
- See the pattern? It's Fibonacci series number.
- For example: ejo = 5 10 15 -> 5+10 = 15 so the next number is 10+15=25
acdgk = 1 3 4 7 11 -> 1+3=4; 3+4=7; 4+7=11 so the next number is 7+11=18
It becomes:
10+15 ; 1+14 ; 9+12 = you
1 ; 7+11 ; = ar
3 ; 9+12 ; 8+12 ; 1+4 = cute
BeforeCentury:
- BeforeCentury doesn't follow the pattern of other words.
- Think of other hint: only 2 capitalized characters ever appeared.
- Take B and C only.
BC = 2+3 = 5 = e
So the answer is "you are cute".
***
Some people told me:
- He tried to multiple, add, divide, subtract the right character to the left character and to the right character.
Possible, but too complicated.
1st, there's are 4^3 combination for Operation Right; Operation Left; Operation Right
2nd, there are total of 20 words, 4^3*20 combination
3rd, it doesn't really make sense because some of the words have more than 3 characters
- There are many possible way to convert character to number, why based on position of the character?
It's the easiest way.
- How if I don't know Fibonacci?
It's okay not to know Fibonacci, you can just do it based on the pattern of the numbers just like most of the questions in IQ test.
For example: 1, 5, 9, ... the next number is? 13
***
Cheats:
- Find the weirdest word: acdgk
- Convert it to number
- Get the pattern
- Do it for all other words (If don't have idea about the Right-Left-Right)
- Cross out words that don't follow the pattern
- Get the answer
New one for people who's interested :P
sir ejo is an aboriginal cil
a word acdgk means BeforeCentury wars
you c aboriginal cil likes hl milk ad
hints: maths and right-left-right
right-left-right:
- People can differentiate left and right if there's at least a pair of items. For example: ab - a is at left and b is at right.
- Each of the sentence are in multiple of 2.
- There are 3 sentences and 3 items (right-left-right).
- Based on those, can try: pair up each word in the sentence and cross out the useless words.
right: sir ejo | is an | aboriginal cil
left: a word | acdgk means | BeforeCentury wars
right: you c | aboriginal cil | likes hl | milk ad
ejo an cil
a acdgk BeforeCentury
c cil hl ad
maths:
- The easiest way to convert words to numbers is by the position of the characters. a is 1 while z is 24.
It becomes:
5 10 15 ; 1 14 ; 3 9 12
1 ; 1 3 4 7 11 ; Left out the BeforeCentury for first
3 ; 3 9 12 ; 8 12 ; 1 4
- See the pattern? It's Fibonacci series number.
- For example: ejo = 5 10 15 -> 5+10 = 15 so the next number is 10+15=25
acdgk = 1 3 4 7 11 -> 1+3=4; 3+4=7; 4+7=11 so the next number is 7+11=18
It becomes:
10+15 ; 1+14 ; 9+12 = you
1 ; 7+11 ; = ar
3 ; 9+12 ; 8+12 ; 1+4 = cute
BeforeCentury:
- BeforeCentury doesn't follow the pattern of other words.
- Think of other hint: only 2 capitalized characters ever appeared.
- Take B and C only.
BC = 2+3 = 5 = e
So the answer is "you are cute".
***
Some people told me:
- He tried to multiple, add, divide, subtract the right character to the left character and to the right character.
Possible, but too complicated.
1st, there's are 4^3 combination for Operation Right; Operation Left; Operation Right
2nd, there are total of 20 words, 4^3*20 combination
3rd, it doesn't really make sense because some of the words have more than 3 characters
- There are many possible way to convert character to number, why based on position of the character?
It's the easiest way.
- How if I don't know Fibonacci?
It's okay not to know Fibonacci, you can just do it based on the pattern of the numbers just like most of the questions in IQ test.
For example: 1, 5, 9, ... the next number is? 13
***
Cheats:
- Find the weirdest word: acdgk
- Convert it to number
- Get the pattern
- Do it for all other words (If don't have idea about the Right-Left-Right)
- Cross out words that don't follow the pattern
- Get the answer
New one for people who's interested :P
Monday, November 24, 2008
You are not a dumb Cinderella
We all know Cinderella and the Prince met, danced, fell in love and lived happily ever after. But the modern Cinderella is not as lucky as the fairy tales one.
The modern Cinderella also met her Prince, but for once, she ever wished that she had never met him. Cinderella lives in her own cottage in the forest. Even though her life is not very fascinating, it's still quite a peaceful life. The prince, lives far away from the forest, in his own palace.
The prince met Cinderella when he was in the mission of exploring the forest. He was lost in the big forest. He was locked up alone in the big forest, big loneliness, with forced solitude that's always around him. Since then, Cinderella has always been a companion to him. Cinderella is innocent, warm-hearted and ignorant. Thus, the prince enjoys talking to her, sharing things to her and cuddling with her. The prince is no longer lonely in the forest that is so obscure to him. Never being treated sweetly, silly Cinderella slowly began to notice him. She noticed things that she would not have noticed. She is slowly being poisoned.
Months later, the rescue team found the lost and pity Prince in the jungle. Cinderella was dismay and panic. Is this only a dream? She asked herself. She didn't bear to let him go. She purposely left her glass shoes for him. He noticed it, but did nothing. He left. She was left. Her peaceful life is then, not that peaceful anymore.
Through the frayed curtain at her window, she desolately glimpsed at the sky and the trees. In spring, all the leaves are gentle green, but the sky is always grey. Her room emerges slowly from the gloom. She misses him badly. She eats cheese cake with bitter smile, she watches horror movie to paralyse her mind. She lost herself but gained her weight.
Back to the palace, the prince lives happily with the princess. He forgets the time when he needs companion the most and Cinderella was there with him. He is too busy with his little princess.
Fortunately, one of Cinderella's besties - Snow White, lent her some of her dwarfs. Living with the evil step sisters, step mother and collided with the not-so-perfect prince at the wrong timing, she's cheered up by Snow White's drawfs. She cannot repay anything to the drawfs but only her eternal friendship.
Dear prince, why did you run across the poor Cinderella, give her hope and tarnish it?
The modern Cinderella also met her Prince, but for once, she ever wished that she had never met him. Cinderella lives in her own cottage in the forest. Even though her life is not very fascinating, it's still quite a peaceful life. The prince, lives far away from the forest, in his own palace.
The prince met Cinderella when he was in the mission of exploring the forest. He was lost in the big forest. He was locked up alone in the big forest, big loneliness, with forced solitude that's always around him. Since then, Cinderella has always been a companion to him. Cinderella is innocent, warm-hearted and ignorant. Thus, the prince enjoys talking to her, sharing things to her and cuddling with her. The prince is no longer lonely in the forest that is so obscure to him. Never being treated sweetly, silly Cinderella slowly began to notice him. She noticed things that she would not have noticed. She is slowly being poisoned.
Months later, the rescue team found the lost and pity Prince in the jungle. Cinderella was dismay and panic. Is this only a dream? She asked herself. She didn't bear to let him go. She purposely left her glass shoes for him. He noticed it, but did nothing. He left. She was left. Her peaceful life is then, not that peaceful anymore.
Through the frayed curtain at her window, she desolately glimpsed at the sky and the trees. In spring, all the leaves are gentle green, but the sky is always grey. Her room emerges slowly from the gloom. She misses him badly. She eats cheese cake with bitter smile, she watches horror movie to paralyse her mind. She lost herself but gained her weight.
Back to the palace, the prince lives happily with the princess. He forgets the time when he needs companion the most and Cinderella was there with him. He is too busy with his little princess.
Fortunately, one of Cinderella's besties - Snow White, lent her some of her dwarfs. Living with the evil step sisters, step mother and collided with the not-so-perfect prince at the wrong timing, she's cheered up by Snow White's drawfs. She cannot repay anything to the drawfs but only her eternal friendship.
Dear prince, why did you run across the poor Cinderella, give her hope and tarnish it?
Saturday, November 22, 2008
A Little Game
I recall when I was 12 years old, my friend and I used to love reading The Three Investigators by Robert Arthur. One of the investigators that I like is Pete Crenshaw which explains my very first email account named crenshawxx@hotmail.com. It's a teen detective novel series that's quite fascinating especially those codes which were used to convey information related to the crimes.
Since then, we both fell in love with codes! We regularly dedicated our break time in decrypting and encrypting codes. I cannot remember the last time we played this game. It must be over a decade.
Recently we took advantage of the internet and started emailing each other. And this little game of us once again has been revived. Always, a nostalgic person, I'm quite overload with the joy of continuing this hobby.
This is my code, an easy one.
sir ejo is an aboriginal cil
a word acdgk means BeforeCentury wars
you c aboriginal cil likes hl milk ad
hints: maths and right-left-right
P.S.: Feel so sian when I read this:
蠍子通常不是天真無邪型的天使，他相當明白自己的慾望，並且努力追求；既然做不到圓滑與妥協，他就選擇沈穩的處理各種情緒，讓別人看不出來。所以，您最好收斂一下瑣碎的老毛病，適當溝通、多給彼此空間，才不會讓自己愛的很辛苦！
Since then, we both fell in love with codes! We regularly dedicated our break time in decrypting and encrypting codes. I cannot remember the last time we played this game. It must be over a decade.
Recently we took advantage of the internet and started emailing each other. And this little game of us once again has been revived. Always, a nostalgic person, I'm quite overload with the joy of continuing this hobby.
This is my code, an easy one.
sir ejo is an aboriginal cil
a word acdgk means BeforeCentury wars
you c aboriginal cil likes hl milk ad
hints: maths and right-left-right
P.S.: Feel so sian when I read this:
蠍子通常不是天真無邪型的天使，他相當明白自己的慾望，並且努力追求；既然做不到圓滑與妥協，他就選擇沈穩的處理各種情緒，讓別人看不出來。所以，您最好收斂一下瑣碎的老毛病，適當溝通、多給彼此空間，才不會讓自己愛的很辛苦！
Friday, November 21, 2008
Happy birthday ah fa!
I don't know today is your birthday or not. Pardon me, I have a very bad memory and I'm very blur. But allow me to write something about what I've always felt towards you even though I can quite guarantee you are quite unlikely to read it.
People like you are disappearing soon. It's getting rarer and rarer. My this friend, is the only friend I know that will bother to sms everyone about people's birthday. "Dear all, today is blah blah blah birthday, you can wish him @ xxxx-xxxx" Most of the people I know that receive that sms did nothing. Couldn't even be bothered to thanks the reminder or to wish the birthday boy/girl happy birthday. Time and effort have become too expensive to be spent on others.
Hey, I'm busy lah, when his sms came, I'm still at office dealing with stuffs.
Hey, I'm not close to him lah, so weird lah sms him.
Yao meh, totally don't feel like sms-ing him leh.
Ya ya ya, I know. I never blamed on you people ah. Even I, myself also like that. We do 2 things. Click to read and click to delete. Because our 2 minute time to reply, our enthusiasm for friend, our effort to type few words are too expensive. We rather spend it on other meaningful things. And we never feel 愧疚/sorry about it.
You reminded me on what I did back then in high school. Cannot believe I had the enthusiasm to make birthday card for almost everyone at class. (Still remember that time one of the guys misunderstood and asked me quite directly "Why did you make card for me" Haha, it quite freaked me out. And I said "Err.. I made for everyone >.<". And I saw the embarrassment and disappointment in his eyes.) Cannot believe I would buy Sabah's pencil for everyone at class. The current me is quite unlikely to do thing like that anymore.
Most of the people cannot even see the enthusiasm in you. But at least I saw it ;P
Ganbate and just don't turn up to be like me even though what you've got probably is probably coldness. Ops, I shouldn't write those discouraging words, sorry! I admire people like you, unlike those who keep on saying "Nobody cares me" "Nobody understands me".
You go girl, ops, I mean you go Ah fa!!! ;P
May the enthusiasm never ends :)
People like you are disappearing soon. It's getting rarer and rarer. My this friend, is the only friend I know that will bother to sms everyone about people's birthday. "Dear all, today is blah blah blah birthday, you can wish him @ xxxx-xxxx" Most of the people I know that receive that sms did nothing. Couldn't even be bothered to thanks the reminder or to wish the birthday boy/girl happy birthday. Time and effort have become too expensive to be spent on others.
Hey, I'm busy lah, when his sms came, I'm still at office dealing with stuffs.
Hey, I'm not close to him lah, so weird lah sms him.
Yao meh, totally don't feel like sms-ing him leh.
Ya ya ya, I know. I never blamed on you people ah. Even I, myself also like that. We do 2 things. Click to read and click to delete. Because our 2 minute time to reply, our enthusiasm for friend, our effort to type few words are too expensive. We rather spend it on other meaningful things. And we never feel 愧疚/sorry about it.
You reminded me on what I did back then in high school. Cannot believe I had the enthusiasm to make birthday card for almost everyone at class. (Still remember that time one of the guys misunderstood and asked me quite directly "Why did you make card for me" Haha, it quite freaked me out. And I said "Err.. I made for everyone >.<". And I saw the embarrassment and disappointment in his eyes.) Cannot believe I would buy Sabah's pencil for everyone at class. The current me is quite unlikely to do thing like that anymore.
Most of the people cannot even see the enthusiasm in you. But at least I saw it ;P
Ganbate and just don't turn up to be like me even though what you've got probably is probably coldness. Ops, I shouldn't write those discouraging words, sorry! I admire people like you, unlike those who keep on saying "Nobody cares me" "Nobody understands me".
You go girl, ops, I mean you go Ah fa!!! ;P
May the enthusiasm never ends :)
Show off time ;P
Few presents that have accompanied me for so long... maybe more than 5 years...
*in no special order*
grandma's handmade scarf - 2002/2003
I have great obsessions on those that can keep me warm, that includes scarfs, blankets, leg warmers, arm warmers, socks, stockings.
mum's handmade pencil case - almost a decade ago
stitch soft toy - November 3rd, 2002
Slept with me all nights til sometime in 2008, time when he died burned by heater.
Dream catcher - sometime in 2004/2005 by lian
Given when I was very stressful and continuously had nightmares. He was on holiday at USA and sent this to me. Followed me move house 3 times, thus was hanged at 3 different heads of bed.
clover cup - august 2008 by wifey
Love drinking warm drinks, so Love mugs, love cups.
Actually I love and keep all the presents that people gave to me, but currently post these 5 first, let you jealous ;P
*in no special order*
grandma's handmade scarf - 2002/2003
I have great obsessions on those that can keep me warm, that includes scarfs, blankets, leg warmers, arm warmers, socks, stockings.
mum's handmade pencil case - almost a decade ago
stitch soft toy - November 3rd, 2002
Slept with me all nights til sometime in 2008, time when he died burned by heater.
Dream catcher - sometime in 2004/2005 by lian
Given when I was very stressful and continuously had nightmares. He was on holiday at USA and sent this to me. Followed me move house 3 times, thus was hanged at 3 different heads of bed.
clover cup - august 2008 by wifey
Love drinking warm drinks, so Love mugs, love cups.
Actually I love and keep all the presents that people gave to me, but currently post these 5 first, let you jealous ;P
Why didnt he catch my falling star
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rMDJHTLU9qk
How Could an Angel Break My Heart - Tony Braxton
I heard he sang a lullaby
I heard he sang it from his heart
When I found out thought I would die
Because that lullaby was mine
I heard he sealed it with a kiss
He gently kissed her cherry lips
I found that so hard to believe
Because his kiss belonged to me
How could an angel break my heart
Why didnt he catch my falling star
I wish I didnt wish so hard
Maybe I wished our love apart
How could an angel break my heart
I heard her face was white as rain
Soft as a rose that blooms in may
He keeps her picture in a frame
And when he sleeps he calls her name
I wonder if she makes him smile
The way he used to smile at me
I hope she doesnt make him laugh
Because his laugh belongs to me
How could an angel break my heart
Why didnt he catch my falling star
I wish I didnt wish so hard
Maybe I wish our love apart
How could an angel break my heart
Oh my soul is dying, its crying
Im trying to understand
Please help me
How could an angel break my heart
Why didnt he catch my falling star
I wish I didnt wish so hard
Maybe I wished our love apart
How could an angel break my heart
How Could an Angel Break My Heart - Tony Braxton
I heard he sang a lullaby
I heard he sang it from his heart
When I found out thought I would die
Because that lullaby was mine
I heard he sealed it with a kiss
He gently kissed her cherry lips
I found that so hard to believe
Because his kiss belonged to me
How could an angel break my heart
Why didnt he catch my falling star
I wish I didnt wish so hard
Maybe I wished our love apart
How could an angel break my heart
I heard her face was white as rain
Soft as a rose that blooms in may
He keeps her picture in a frame
And when he sleeps he calls her name
I wonder if she makes him smile
The way he used to smile at me
I hope she doesnt make him laugh
Because his laugh belongs to me
How could an angel break my heart
Why didnt he catch my falling star
I wish I didnt wish so hard
Maybe I wish our love apart
How could an angel break my heart
Oh my soul is dying, its crying
Im trying to understand
Please help me
How could an angel break my heart
Why didnt he catch my falling star
I wish I didnt wish so hard
Maybe I wished our love apart
How could an angel break my heart
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Is this love? Part 2
Happened to read this article today and was amazed!
Heys.. that's what on my mind recently.. wah.. it's like found somebody who understands what I thought ;P
有一句話廣受引用, 你必然也聽過..
男人因性而愛, 女人因愛而性.
真的嗎?
在我看來, 是個很粗慥的二分法, 看低了男人, 也高估了女人.
好像男人不懂愛是當然, 而女人的性是為了愛而犧牲.
把愛弄得太有目的, 而性又變得太過無聊.
也就因為性和愛一直被二分法分割著, 所以文明社會的人都把性當成洪水猛獸, 懷有一種深入集體潛意識的罪惡感, 而愛又慢慢進入虛無的幻象.
然後, 生殖又被捧的無比崇高, 崇高到與性和愛都沒啥關係, 好像大都是為了怕對不起祖先才做愛的, 做愛只是傳宗接代. 父母故意在孩子面前顯現出他們之間毫無曖昧關係, 以致孩子小的時候都相信他們都是石頭裡x出來的. (x cos I don't know how to type that word, self play crossword ;P)
男人比女人喜歡性是應該的, 雄性在生物界一向屬於性的主動權擁有者;雌性具有生育功能與保育幼兒的本能, 性對他們來說, 常有很多責任, 所以他們豈可能隨便?
性是生物本能的吸引, 愛則是一種精神文明. 進入精神層次當然比生物本能需要多一點良知良能, 但不可以因而貶仰性.
愛不是本能, 愛是一種善念, 意義需要覺知, 手法需要學習.
我曾有一本書, 想要名為[學來的愛情], 被出版社的編輯會議推翻了, 大多數人的理由是: 啊? 愛也要學? 太累了! 我雖然從善如流, 但心中難免有點難過, 如果連文化事業的人, 都只把愛當本能, 難怪各種很本能的負面情緒, 如:妒嫉, 恨, 報復, 自虐, 以及同歸於盡, 替代了愛情, 使報紙上多了一種叫[社會版]的東西, 好像我們的社會沒有這些事件, 就不精采.
-吳淡如 [愛的幽默]
第一段.. 很諷刺的描寫人類的虛偽.. 不過我喜歡.. 也非常同意..
性.. 我不知道.. 沒有經驗.. 不過我不會偏低它.. 只是如吳淡如所說: "雌性具有生育功能與保育幼兒的本能, 性對他們來說, 常有很多責任, 所以他們豈可能隨便?" 所以暫時離它遠一些.. 因為懶惰, 怕麻煩, 也因為還有少年時幼稚的, 古板的渴望美麗浪漫的婚姻蜜月..
第二段.. 啊.. 正如我所說過的.. 愛情如果不帶給我們快樂, 那就不是愛情了.. 妒嫉, 恨, 報復, 自虐, 以及同歸於盡, 替代了愛情.. 人們總喜歡把東西複雜化.. 以為越複雜就越精采..
Just like what I wrote before.. people may argue.. love is just like spices.. brings up all the favors: sweet, bitter, salty, sour.. people say..
I ill-treat myself is because I really love her, I cannot forget her..
I'm so jealous because I really love her..
The desperate housewive series, revenge to shoot her husband.. her argument also is because she was really hurted.. she loved him so much..
But.. that's not love anymore.. It's something wrong..
愛不是本能, 愛是一種善念, 意義需要覺知, 手法需要學習.
Just like I mentioned before.. if love cannot bring you happiness, it must be something wrong.. so change the way you love people, change the environment, change the people.. 手法需要學習..
One of my friends told me..
Happiness depends on you, you are the one who makes yourself happy and sad.
Yeah, so true. I agree.
But.. we don't live in isolation. We deal with people.
Most of the time, our happiness, anger and sadness depend on others.. don't you think so?
We're pissed because others step on us, quarrel with us..
We're sad because others misunderstand us, don't care us..
We're happy because others love us...
I agree... it depends on us not others... only ourself can make us happy.
But, it's just... so hard.
That's why I think the easiest way is to learn to let go, ignore those who don't get along with you ;P
Heys.. that's what on my mind recently.. wah.. it's like found somebody who understands what I thought ;P
有一句話廣受引用, 你必然也聽過..
男人因性而愛, 女人因愛而性.
真的嗎?
在我看來, 是個很粗慥的二分法, 看低了男人, 也高估了女人.
好像男人不懂愛是當然, 而女人的性是為了愛而犧牲.
把愛弄得太有目的, 而性又變得太過無聊.
也就因為性和愛一直被二分法分割著, 所以文明社會的人都把性當成洪水猛獸, 懷有一種深入集體潛意識的罪惡感, 而愛又慢慢進入虛無的幻象.
然後, 生殖又被捧的無比崇高, 崇高到與性和愛都沒啥關係, 好像大都是為了怕對不起祖先才做愛的, 做愛只是傳宗接代. 父母故意在孩子面前顯現出他們之間毫無曖昧關係, 以致孩子小的時候都相信他們都是石頭裡x出來的. (x cos I don't know how to type that word, self play crossword ;P)
男人比女人喜歡性是應該的, 雄性在生物界一向屬於性的主動權擁有者;雌性具有生育功能與保育幼兒的本能, 性對他們來說, 常有很多責任, 所以他們豈可能隨便?
性是生物本能的吸引, 愛則是一種精神文明. 進入精神層次當然比生物本能需要多一點良知良能, 但不可以因而貶仰性.
愛不是本能, 愛是一種善念, 意義需要覺知, 手法需要學習.
我曾有一本書, 想要名為[學來的愛情], 被出版社的編輯會議推翻了, 大多數人的理由是: 啊? 愛也要學? 太累了! 我雖然從善如流, 但心中難免有點難過, 如果連文化事業的人, 都只把愛當本能, 難怪各種很本能的負面情緒, 如:妒嫉, 恨, 報復, 自虐, 以及同歸於盡, 替代了愛情, 使報紙上多了一種叫[社會版]的東西, 好像我們的社會沒有這些事件, 就不精采.
-吳淡如 [愛的幽默]
第一段.. 很諷刺的描寫人類的虛偽.. 不過我喜歡.. 也非常同意..
性.. 我不知道.. 沒有經驗.. 不過我不會偏低它.. 只是如吳淡如所說: "雌性具有生育功能與保育幼兒的本能, 性對他們來說, 常有很多責任, 所以他們豈可能隨便?" 所以暫時離它遠一些.. 因為懶惰, 怕麻煩, 也因為還有少年時幼稚的, 古板的渴望美麗浪漫的婚姻蜜月..
第二段.. 啊.. 正如我所說過的.. 愛情如果不帶給我們快樂, 那就不是愛情了.. 妒嫉, 恨, 報復, 自虐, 以及同歸於盡, 替代了愛情.. 人們總喜歡把東西複雜化.. 以為越複雜就越精采..
Just like what I wrote before.. people may argue.. love is just like spices.. brings up all the favors: sweet, bitter, salty, sour.. people say..
I ill-treat myself is because I really love her, I cannot forget her..
I'm so jealous because I really love her..
The desperate housewive series, revenge to shoot her husband.. her argument also is because she was really hurted.. she loved him so much..
But.. that's not love anymore.. It's something wrong..
愛不是本能, 愛是一種善念, 意義需要覺知, 手法需要學習.
Just like I mentioned before.. if love cannot bring you happiness, it must be something wrong.. so change the way you love people, change the environment, change the people.. 手法需要學習..
One of my friends told me..
Happiness depends on you, you are the one who makes yourself happy and sad.
Yeah, so true. I agree.
But.. we don't live in isolation. We deal with people.
Most of the time, our happiness, anger and sadness depend on others.. don't you think so?
We're pissed because others step on us, quarrel with us..
We're sad because others misunderstand us, don't care us..
We're happy because others love us...
I agree... it depends on us not others... only ourself can make us happy.
But, it's just... so hard.
That's why I think the easiest way is to learn to let go, ignore those who don't get along with you ;P
I'm gonna marry the person who buys golden retriever for me!
credit: pets911.com
Cheap leh.. haha.. bo pian.. on sale wad.. ;P
Argh.. I'm so deeply in love with golden retriever..
Few days ago I went out, saw few golden retrievers, had such an intense urge to hug them..
Jesus.. why do I love dog more than man :'(
Monday, November 17, 2008
Is this love?
I remember when I was little, when I was in kindergarten, when I was in primary school, the teacher always say love is the greatest thing among all, love is wonderful, love is... priceless.
When I was in high school, it was when all of us were in the adolescence period, the period when teachers had to crack the head to prevent teenagers fall in love, the period when teachers had to encourage students to study, the period when love became not as great as what you were told back then.
When I'm in Uni, it is when most of the people started to have their own judgment, their own opinion, love... was then mostly defined as complicated.
What is love? I don't know. But I always think that love is the thing that can bring happiness. If love brings sadness, will it still be called love? People may say, of course it is. Love is just spices, it brings out all the taste in the food - sweet, bitter, salty, sour.
It might appear to be a little bit too greedy to just expect happiness out of love. But think of it, if we don't complicate love, if we don't complicate life, shouldn't love be the only source of happiness and never be any source of sadness?
My logic tells me:
If we're happy, it must be love.
If we're not, it must not be love, it should be greed, jealousy, expectations, disappointments...
If it's not, why still hang on it?
Why did I suddenly write about all those craps? It's because I think sometimes we need to learn to let go. Let go the thing that makes us sad, makes us angry, make us miserable because it isn't love.
The 1st and the only desperate housewife series that I watched was about a woman, cheated by the husband, brought the gun to the supermarket with the intention to shoot her husband (her husband worked as the manager of the supermarket). Ended up, the husband hided himself in office, she took the people in the store as hostages and killed one of the hostages.
Despite of the depressing topic, the drama was still brought up in a very funny way. It certainly has entertained me a lot. It ended with the woman was shot by one of the hostage.
One of the ladies in that drama said if she would have gone crazy like her if her husband betrayed her simply because she loves him so much.
Most of the time, when we're hurt, we cannot think calmly and logically. If love has faded away, why do we still hang on it, why do we still hurt others, hurt ourself, why do we stubbornly not let go, why cant we love ourself more than our emotions...
Few days ago, one of my EX-housemates told me this:
台湾乐坛又殒落了一颗新星。星光三班歌手黎础宁，疑似因为感情问题想不开，烧炭寻短，这个消息让大家都非常震惊，黎础宁曾经和职棒外籍球员交往，四年的异国恋情相当辛苦，最后过不了情关，楚宁的爸爸，强忍悲伤，帮女儿处理后事。
credit: http://ent.xunlei.com/music/contents/3b/285944.shtml
Love... becomes so differently defined as the one I was told many years ago.
I choose to have faith on my kindergarten teacher. I believe that's not love anymore.
Love brings happiness, not death. If it doesn't, change the way, the environment, the people til your love finds you happiness.
I used to think the longer you've known someone, the deeper your relationship with him/her, the bigger your expectation to him/her. I used to be so proud of saying stuff like this "Hey, we've known each other for more than 10 years!". But, I've changed my mind. What's important to me now isn't how long have I known him/her, but whether we get along or not. And that's what important now.
I learned to let go and stop complicating life and friendship. If my love doesn't bring me happiness, my friends doesn't bring me happiness, why bother. There's still so much happiness out there waiting for me to explore.
Few days ago, I was still a little bit wandering around the memoirs of my high school friends.
I cannot cease to marvel whether they are the people I've spent my high school life with for 3 years, whether they are the people I've known for 10 years.
I added one of my high school friend into my msn. She deleted my msn. I thought, heys, it's okay. I seldom login. Then I added her back. Few days ago I checked, she deleted me again.
Few years ago, I msn one of my high school friends, he asked me "Eh, who are u?"
We don't seem to have the tendency to add each other on facebook no matter how facebook promotes our contact on the people you might know. Yah, I cannot be bothered to add you guys too.
We don't seem to have the tendency to play on the same table on poker even if we know we both are playing.
I yearned over the memories, the friendship. A year ago, I still sillily dreaming of another Tioman trip with my high school friends. My high school teachers always said "Treasure your high school friends as after you go to university, the friendship is totally different."
- I wonder.
The longer you know someone, does it matter?
The deeper your love, does it matter?
The longer your relationship with somebody, does it matter?
To me, I learned to let go. When love fades away, it doesn't seem to matter that much anymore. What I've looked into is just whether we get along with each other, whether we are happy.
And it definitely has made me become stronger.
When I was in high school, it was when all of us were in the adolescence period, the period when teachers had to crack the head to prevent teenagers fall in love, the period when teachers had to encourage students to study, the period when love became not as great as what you were told back then.
When I'm in Uni, it is when most of the people started to have their own judgment, their own opinion, love... was then mostly defined as complicated.
What is love? I don't know. But I always think that love is the thing that can bring happiness. If love brings sadness, will it still be called love? People may say, of course it is. Love is just spices, it brings out all the taste in the food - sweet, bitter, salty, sour.
It might appear to be a little bit too greedy to just expect happiness out of love. But think of it, if we don't complicate love, if we don't complicate life, shouldn't love be the only source of happiness and never be any source of sadness?
My logic tells me:
If we're happy, it must be love.
If we're not, it must not be love, it should be greed, jealousy, expectations, disappointments...
If it's not, why still hang on it?
Why did I suddenly write about all those craps? It's because I think sometimes we need to learn to let go. Let go the thing that makes us sad, makes us angry, make us miserable because it isn't love.
The 1st and the only desperate housewife series that I watched was about a woman, cheated by the husband, brought the gun to the supermarket with the intention to shoot her husband (her husband worked as the manager of the supermarket). Ended up, the husband hided himself in office, she took the people in the store as hostages and killed one of the hostages.
Despite of the depressing topic, the drama was still brought up in a very funny way. It certainly has entertained me a lot. It ended with the woman was shot by one of the hostage.
One of the ladies in that drama said if she would have gone crazy like her if her husband betrayed her simply because she loves him so much.
Most of the time, when we're hurt, we cannot think calmly and logically. If love has faded away, why do we still hang on it, why do we still hurt others, hurt ourself, why do we stubbornly not let go, why cant we love ourself more than our emotions...
Few days ago, one of my EX-housemates told me this:
台湾乐坛又殒落了一颗新星。星光三班歌手黎础宁，疑似因为感情问题想不开，烧炭寻短，这个消息让大家都非常震惊，黎础宁曾经和职棒外籍球员交往，四年的异国恋情相当辛苦，最后过不了情关，楚宁的爸爸，强忍悲伤，帮女儿处理后事。
credit: http://ent.xunlei.com/music/contents/3b/285944.shtml
Love... becomes so differently defined as the one I was told many years ago.
I choose to have faith on my kindergarten teacher. I believe that's not love anymore.
Love brings happiness, not death. If it doesn't, change the way, the environment, the people til your love finds you happiness.
I used to think the longer you've known someone, the deeper your relationship with him/her, the bigger your expectation to him/her. I used to be so proud of saying stuff like this "Hey, we've known each other for more than 10 years!". But, I've changed my mind. What's important to me now isn't how long have I known him/her, but whether we get along or not. And that's what important now.
I learned to let go and stop complicating life and friendship. If my love doesn't bring me happiness, my friends doesn't bring me happiness, why bother. There's still so much happiness out there waiting for me to explore.
Few days ago, I was still a little bit wandering around the memoirs of my high school friends.
I cannot cease to marvel whether they are the people I've spent my high school life with for 3 years, whether they are the people I've known for 10 years.
I added one of my high school friend into my msn. She deleted my msn. I thought, heys, it's okay. I seldom login. Then I added her back. Few days ago I checked, she deleted me again.
Few years ago, I msn one of my high school friends, he asked me "Eh, who are u?"
We don't seem to have the tendency to add each other on facebook no matter how facebook promotes our contact on the people you might know. Yah, I cannot be bothered to add you guys too.
We don't seem to have the tendency to play on the same table on poker even if we know we both are playing.
I yearned over the memories, the friendship. A year ago, I still sillily dreaming of another Tioman trip with my high school friends. My high school teachers always said "Treasure your high school friends as after you go to university, the friendship is totally different."
- I wonder.
The longer you know someone, does it matter?
The deeper your love, does it matter?
The longer your relationship with somebody, does it matter?
To me, I learned to let go. When love fades away, it doesn't seem to matter that much anymore. What I've looked into is just whether we get along with each other, whether we are happy.
And it definitely has made me become stronger.
Sunday, November 16, 2008
When your life has absolute dependency on others
credit: neuromajor.ucr.edu
Synopsis:
The Diving Bell and the Butterfly is a translation of the French memoir Le scaphandre et le papillon by journalist Jean-Dominique Bauby. It describes what his life is like after suffering a massive stroke that left him with a condition called locked-in syndrome. It also details what his life was before the stroke.
On December 8, 1995, Bauby, the editor-in-chief of Elle magazine, suffered a stroke and lapsed into a coma. He awoke 20 days later, mentally aware of his surroundings but physically paralyzed with the exception of some movement in his head and left eye. The entire book was written by Bauby blinking his left eyelid, in July and August 1996. A transcriber repeatedly recited a French language frequency-ordered alphabet (E, S, A, R, I, N, T, U, L, etc.), until Bauby blinked to choose the next letter. The book took about 200,000 blinks to write and an average word took approximately two minutes. The book also chronicles everyday events for a person with locked-in syndrome. These events include playing at the beach with his family, getting a bath, and meeting visitors.
-credit: wikipedia
一本非常震撼人心的書. 如有意要讀, 像我一樣 - 淚腺發達的朋友, 最好先準備些紙巾, 因為每一章, 每一頁, 都值妳的眼淚.一個成功的男人, 世界彷彿在他掌握的中. 一夜間, 不只變得一無所有, 更悽涼的是變成在每一個情況下, 在沒有別人的幫助就活不下去.
One of the sentence written by the author that deeply touched me:
"But for now, I would be the happiest of men if I could just swallow the overflow of saliva endlessly flooding my mouth"
Did we ever once in our life feel so blessed and fortunate to be able to swallow our own saliva?
Most of the time we are just too greedy of achieving, too busy of comparing and too blind of looking at what we're capable of.
Most of the time we just pay too much attention on people we set an eye on, too easy influenced by strangers and too easy to neglect those who really care about us.
Just because we're too good at taking things for granted.
If the author were still alive, I would have said this to him:
"You probably ain't the happiest of men for not being able to swallow the overflow of saliva, yet you're the luckiest of the locked-in syndrome men for still having control of your left eye which make it possible for you to finish the book."
Happiness is not hard if we can just pay little attention to what we've got instead of pay much attention to what we don't have.
Saturday, November 15, 2008
世上有太多人 閒來無事做評判 來歧視我這一半
世上有太多人 閒來無事做評判 來歧視我這一半
Like this sentence a lot.
It's simple yet meaningful.
It means there are lots of people in this world who have nothing to do but judge and criticize others.
生死遗言。童话的终结
Like this sentence a lot.
It's simple yet meaningful.
It means there are lots of people in this world who have nothing to do but judge and criticize others.
大男人 - 許志安Read this somewhere anonymously ;P
曲︰雷頌德
詞︰林夕
編︰雷頌德
想 當然想誇獎自己 哪個夠我喜歡你
但是望著你品味 多麼洩氣
＊愛未夠留住你 我未夠你喜歡
世上有太多人 閒來無事做評判
來歧視我這一半
＃要是有日你做男人 相信你亦較我吸引
早晚仰望高不可攀女伴 如何忍
我恨我是個大男人 不信我們可以合襯
假使躲進被內唯求一吻
全世界也都不及我深
想 當然想早點成家 你卻哪個都不嫁
事業就是你天下 不肯降價
重唱 ＊
陪著你 變成日日夜夜奉承你
我們就像在路上競技 只是你的快樂
其實我都買不起 我沒法成大器
抱住你早晚亦會看不起自己
原來情份是種選美 旁人共我怎麼比
重唱 ＃
生死遗言。童话的终结
傍晚回家的路上，雨还是绵绵的下着。
听着933。。 突然，主持人说 “伊能静 庾澄庆已经分居 / 离婚”
心里一惊，竟然在高速公路上差点紧急刹车。
心很痛，很痛。
回家看报纸，图文并茂的刊登伊能静被拍到出轨的照片。
好难过。
我并不会迷恋偶像。我不迷恋哈林，也不迷恋伊能静。
令我炫目的是他们的爱情。
前几天，脑海里还闪过很多年前的超级星期天，里头的一个单元 《超级任务》
伊能静寻亲人的那期，是我看了，哭得最惨的一集。
我记得，伊能静上节目的那集，哈林这主持人竟然不上节目，因为请病假。
小燕姐有说，从很多年前他们一直想找伊能静上超级任务，可是因为主持人哈林怕别扭，就一直拖着。
后来，总算伊能静有这个机会上超级任务了，哈林为了不上节目，想尽办法让自己生病，结果在录影前一晚，吃了大量的大闸蟹。
结果，向来对螃蟹敏感的他，如他所愿，整个脸肿到像猪一样，顺理成章的，他就不需要上节目了。
我还记得伊能静说起他吃大闸蟹的事，眼睛是含笑的。
小燕姐也说，对呀，哈林就是一心一意的爱着伊能静。自从第一眼看上她以后，就从此不再看别的女生。
成为个绝对的绯闻绝缘体。
然后，在超级任务中，伊能静说到，她的童年过得很苦，多亏一个阿姨（还是奶妈 我忘了）把她带大。
后来，超级任务的那扇门打开，走出来的是那阿姨的儿子。他说，他妈妈在两年前去世了。
伊能静哭得很惨，小燕姐在旁说，如果你早点上超级任务，就不会有这个遗憾了。
在看节目的我，一直在想，哈林一定会很内疚，他一定要更疼伊能静来弥补她的遗憾。
后来，伊能静写过一本书，名叫《生死遗言》。
里面很多篇文章，可是故事内容我都忘了，就是她和哈林的点点滴滴。
我很喜欢这本书，我很喜欢他们的爱情，我认为，王子跟公主就应该有这样的结局。
不久前才把我的《生死遗言》送了人，因为这个分居 / 离婚的传闻，刚刚有一股冲动，想找回这本书重看一遍。
现在再想想，何苦呢？重看的话，我只是在看一堆谎言堆筑的美丽故事呀！
在这个世界上，真的不会有天长地久的爱情吗？
看完了, 反感無比, 超級噁心, 很想吐.
看完了, 反感無比, 超級噁心, 很想吐.
"心里一惊，竟然在高速公路上差点紧急刹车。
心很痛，很痛。"
"我只是在看一堆谎言堆筑的美丽故事呀！"
阿婆啊, 嫻事可以少管一點嗎?
"世上有太多人 閒來無事做評判 來歧視我這一半"
I mean come on.. How much do you know about them?
I feel human are really so 膚淺. Simply spend their emotions and feelings based on those stupid gossips. So easily influenced. When people wrote such a nice fairy tales, then fell over it days and nights and when people wrote bad stuffs, then felt so heartaches.
Furthermore, if she really supports the couple, saying stuffs like that really won't help them.
Being supportive as in giving the appropriate helps. What they need most now are probably a person to talk to, couple of beers or silence. But what have those people who claimed "support" them given to the couple? Judgments, criticizes and opinions.
"I think yu neng jing really..."
"I think the book she wrote is fake..."
"I think they shouldn't break up..."
"I think that is not the best for the kid..."
Omigosh, all those I think, I think, I think...
Have you ever asked the person what she/he really wants?
Actually I really kinda can understand yu neng jing and harlem's feelings.
Life has already been so stressful because of the failure in their marriage, yet still need to entertain the public, need to answer the public, need to listen to what the public says, this and that.
"我只是在看一堆谎言堆筑的美丽故事呀！"
阿婆啊, 嫻事可以少管一點嗎?
"世上有太多人 閒來無事做評判 來歧視我這一半"
I mean come on.. How much do you know about them?
I feel human are really so 膚淺. Simply spend their emotions and feelings based on those stupid gossips. So easily influenced. When people wrote such a nice fairy tales, then fell over it days and nights and when people wrote bad stuffs, then felt so heartaches.
Furthermore, if she really supports the couple, saying stuffs like that really won't help them.
Being supportive as in giving the appropriate helps. What they need most now are probably a person to talk to, couple of beers or silence. But what have those people who claimed "support" them given to the couple? Judgments, criticizes and opinions.
"I think yu neng jing really..."
"I think the book she wrote is fake..."
"I think they shouldn't break up..."
"I think that is not the best for the kid..."
Omigosh, all those I think, I think, I think...
Have you ever asked the person what she/he really wants?
Actually I really kinda can understand yu neng jing and harlem's feelings.
Life has already been so stressful because of the failure in their marriage, yet still need to entertain the public, need to answer the public, need to listen to what the public says, this and that.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
簡單的生活有那麼辛苦嗎?
一位接近七十岁的老人，从纽约市步行到佛罗里达州的迈阿密市，经过长途跋涉，克服了重重困难，终于到达迈阿密市。
有位记者 采访他，记者问：“你年纪那么大了，哪来的勇气和毅力走完这趟旅程？”
老人回答说：“走一步路是不需要勇气，也不需要毅力。我只是先走一步，然后再走一步，又一步，就这样我就到这里了，我哪里需要很大的毅力和勇气呢？ ”
人總是喜歡把簡單的東西複雜化, 就連最簡單的動作 - 走路, 都不放過.
有位记者 采访他，记者问：“你年纪那么大了，哪来的勇气和毅力走完这趟旅程？”
老人回答说：“走一步路是不需要勇气，也不需要毅力。我只是先走一步，然后再走一步，又一步，就这样我就到这里了，我哪里需要很大的毅力和勇气呢？ ”
人總是喜歡把簡單的東西複雜化, 就連最簡單的動作 - 走路, 都不放過.
Sunday, November 9, 2008
天佑我們
天祐我們
作詞：林夕 作曲：雷頌德 編曲：雷頌德
末路太爛 或者未必太習慣
捱一捱為時未晚 趁魔戒尚未發難
命運太爛 甚麼亦不太順眼
隨他們如何害我 陪著你命便夠硬
＊贏了氣勢 又怕輸去甚麼東西
路障不算甚麼東西 你我要心情美麗
橫過了赤地天涯 仍能微笑發誓＊
＃天祐我們 全為我們還算鬥士
能在最壞時刻起義
就算我不是先知 都有信心
天祐我們 全賴背後還有勇字
誰亦會是誰的天使
自愛者都是摩西 只要夠堅持＃
La......
活在世上 甚麼亦不怕遇上
隨他們如何混賬 我跟你獨自漂亮
月亮夠亮 綠燈亦總會遇上
紅海前悠然共你 遙望那六月飛霜
La......
Self Esteem
Sometimes, well, most of the time in your life, it's really very important to have self esteem.
Just like what O said "YOU CAN".
Yeah.. shout it loud, I can!
Once I lost my self esteem very badly.
Mum said "since when you're so low in confidence, you used to be those who have high confident"
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Ops! What it has to do with the self esteem that I was about to write.
Haha, definitely out of topic again.
Let's start with the insensitivity.
Omfg. I think I always think I'm a very sensitive person, but when it deals with love.
OMFG I'm totally lost!
A friend of mine just told me he feels not comfortable with me talking about other guy because he likes me. I was like WTF shit ass. I didn't know it.
I know how hard it is to hear about someone you like bragging stuffs about other guy.
Yeah, I deserved to be spanked. LMAO. I'm sorry man! I really didn't know.
Okay, 2nd one.
Mum told me, you know there's this guy, his mum told me, he didn't dare to woo you because you had bf. And his mum asked: "Your daughter's gf is the medan guy?" The medan guy was the one who went to dinner with me, him, mum, dad, etc (but his mum wasn't there, so definitely is he who told his mum about the medan guy) Blah blah blah.
This guy used to ask me out, call me for hours last year.
I was like WTF!!! I didn't know at all he had such intentions.
You know, I thought friend friend lah, somemore.. from same hometown friend.
Then mum kept on promoting him.. what melb uni scholarship lah, mba lah, this n that..
I was like WTF lah.. I didn't know!!!
Lols.. okay, that explains that I'm really totally blurred when someone likes me.
So, my next mr. right, please please please tell me that you like me because I fucking don't know if I totally have no sparks at you at that time.
Okay! back to the self esteem.
Those things actually quite boosted up my self esteem. HAHA..
Of course will boost up larh.
There's people who like you means there's people who know how to appreciate you.
There's people who know how to appreciate you means there's actually something good in you!
Yeah, heard that? There's SOMETHING GOOD IN YOU.
So believe in yourself that you CAN, that you're NOT terrible, that you're NOT monsterous!
Actually I just wanna say...
to myself who is always think that I'm not good, please stop doing so.
It just feels so pretentious, disgusting and unrespectful.
Pretentious because you know there's people who like you yet you still feel so.
Disgusting because it simply is.
Unrespectful to those people who like you, it means you thinking that they are blind.
Just like what O said "YOU CAN".
Yeah.. shout it loud, I can!
Once I lost my self esteem very badly.
Mum said "since when you're so low in confidence, you used to be those who have high confident"
Show encrypted text
Ops! What it has to do with the self esteem that I was about to write.
Haha, definitely out of topic again.
Let's start with the insensitivity.
Omfg. I think I always think I'm a very sensitive person, but when it deals with love.
OMFG I'm totally lost!
A friend of mine just told me he feels not comfortable with me talking about other guy because he likes me. I was like WTF shit ass. I didn't know it.
I know how hard it is to hear about someone you like bragging stuffs about other guy.
Yeah, I deserved to be spanked. LMAO. I'm sorry man! I really didn't know.
Okay, 2nd one.
Mum told me, you know there's this guy, his mum told me, he didn't dare to woo you because you had bf. And his mum asked: "Your daughter's gf is the medan guy?" The medan guy was the one who went to dinner with me, him, mum, dad, etc (but his mum wasn't there, so definitely is he who told his mum about the medan guy) Blah blah blah.
This guy used to ask me out, call me for hours last year.
I was like WTF!!! I didn't know at all he had such intentions.
You know, I thought friend friend lah, somemore.. from same hometown friend.
Then mum kept on promoting him.. what melb uni scholarship lah, mba lah, this n that..
I was like WTF lah.. I didn't know!!!
Lols.. okay, that explains that I'm really totally blurred when someone likes me.
So, my next mr. right, please please please tell me that you like me because I fucking don't know if I totally have no sparks at you at that time.
Okay! back to the self esteem.
Those things actually quite boosted up my self esteem. HAHA..
Of course will boost up larh.
There's people who like you means there's people who know how to appreciate you.
There's people who know how to appreciate you means there's actually something good in you!
Yeah, heard that? There's SOMETHING GOOD IN YOU.
So believe in yourself that you CAN, that you're NOT terrible, that you're NOT monsterous!
Actually I just wanna say...
to myself who is always think that I'm not good, please stop doing so.
It just feels so pretentious, disgusting and unrespectful.
Pretentious because you know there's people who like you yet you still feel so.
Disgusting because it simply is.
Unrespectful to those people who like you, it means you thinking that they are blind.
Saturday, November 8, 2008
無理取鬧的公主
那天朋友msn我幾首歌...
Fren is sending you a song.
me: WTF song is that?
fren: o.o
me: zzz.. i don't like, straight bin it
fren: lmao
Fren is sending you another song.
me: WTF this song so old already... i got this song like ten thousand years ago larh
fren: wth you
fren: no want send you song anymore
Fren is sending you another song again. <- LMAO
me: LMAO, you said don't want give, you still give
fren: kk, i cancel it now
*file still transferring*
me: omg, all those songs you sent to me all puke!!!
fren: that's why i gave you <- still tryin to make joke, lmao
fren: i gave you song, you didn't thank me but puke
fren: hate you
fren: bye
me: zzz i hate you more lah.. u sent me all those puke songs..
fren: lmao T.T
me: hehe jk la sayang
If I treat you like this, will you be mad?
- definitely
that's why I only show my true color to special people...
Fren is sending you a song.
me: WTF song is that?
fren: o.o
me: zzz.. i don't like, straight bin it
fren: lmao
Fren is sending you another song.
me: WTF this song so old already... i got this song like ten thousand years ago larh
fren: wth you
fren: no want send you song anymore
Fren is sending you another song again. <- LMAO
me: LMAO, you said don't want give, you still give
fren: kk, i cancel it now
*file still transferring*
me: omg, all those songs you sent to me all puke!!!
fren: that's why i gave you <- still tryin to make joke, lmao
fren: i gave you song, you didn't thank me but puke
fren: hate you
fren: bye
me: zzz i hate you more lah.. u sent me all those puke songs..
fren: lmao T.T
me: hehe jk la sayang
If I treat you like this, will you be mad?
- definitely
that's why I only show my true color to special people...
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
sweetest greetings
thanks to all others who have greeted me too...
*in no special order*
mama, papa, wifey, ah shu, lian, li wei, riki, nicky, ah fa, wei kang, nani, jingga, devi, lisa, agnes, agus, jethro, wee chen, wen yong, li hui, lay kheng, maryana ...
much appreciated
xoxo
ops.. forgot to mention..
thanks for those who celebrated my bday earlier too.. thx for the cake and everything..
*again in no special order*
ellen, hendry, uncle ba, auntie lina, wei long, daniel, vivian, kevin, bao, jane, daisy, tika
much appreciated
added: rui wen
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